Umm well.

Not only that, there’s more. 2 frowning faces, 1 really angry person….. it goes on and on. All these are ingredients of a Day that I wish never came. 1 really BAD day. Yes, I am talking about 2day !!

Today was supposed to be a big day for me. I ain’t gonna say why, but it was ! I was waiting for it the whole week. Had spent atleast an hour everyday planning for it. The plans were huge, but were to be remembered forever. And I was damn sure they’d be !

But then, not everything goes as planned. And I knew that. I had my fingers tighly crossed the whole day in college wishing all would be fine. I was just waiting for the clock to strike 1400 hours. But…..

But that guy(!!) up there ( wayyy up there ) had plans of his own. As usual ( yeh, as usual ) he had to make things bad. But hey, 2day wasn’t bad. 2day was like worse, it was like never before. The limit’s were redefined today !! Seriously.

Our journal submission took longer than expected. ( ^$#^(**$#$ ) I had no idea it was gonna be hell waiting for it to end. I almost lost ground when I realised he had to go somewhere !! and wud return in like 20 mins ( WTF ! We are supposed to wait !! In the corridoor !! ) Oh well, we did wait. We had no other choice. The guy turned up 30 mins later. I was desperate to get my file checked n be on my way ; my plans were waiting. The “surprise” _had_ to be huge. But ^%$^*()(*&&^ ! ( :(( ) 45 mins until my turn !! By this time, my phone had recorded atleast 2 dozen calls n a couple of sms’s from the surprise’s recepient !! But I cudnt move. I had no way of communicating !! All i cud do was wait !

Finally, it ended. I just picked my stuff and ran outa my collg building, tryin to call…

But……..

=(( :(( !

Well, today I realised, also realised, also also realised and decided something !!

Realised: that he upthere never wants to see me make others happy, even though that’s the number 1 thing i love.

Also realised: that people never have and never will understand me. ( I remember termi’s words )

Also also Realised: I am bad. I suck at keeping relationsships. I don’t deserve love ( not my words )

Decided: I’ll put everything behind me. There’s a sunrise everyday. Why can’t there be a smile on my face ? But its not gonna be the same one I have had since 20 years.

Also. I’m never gonna plan surprises ever !